For The Beauty That Is Me.

Am judged by my looks and body.

Am rushed like a piece of meat.

Waiting to be butchered .

Am told am not beautiful.

Unless I get the attention.

That makes me important.

My brain is down graded.

My heart is broken down.

My self esteem is left to rot.

How do I compete with the ways of the world.

When my mind is asked of its existences.

If I fall I seem weak.

But if I don't I seem unfair.

From the beginning of time.

I have been taken as a price.

Always and forever be for the highest bidder.

Used and dumped and allowed to mend,

The pieces of my heart.

I have always taken what the world threw at me.

Made the mistake of what others thought of me,

Be the death of me.

But am beautiful no matter my shape or size.

Am different because of my thought of mind.

Am unique no matter what anyone says.

For I am a girl, a lady and a woman.

                 Diu

THE LOST DAYS

It took me a while to write this piece.

Cause I wanted to write from my heart.

I wanted the words of my depression to speak to you.

I cannot say that I have figured out the secrets of beating this inner demon,

That seems so wild and untamed.

But I can say that I can try to manage it.

Some might say that a depressed being is a lost cause.

Cause your emotions are heightened.

And the very skin that cloths you.

Seems like an unknown life source.

But with all that something beautiful can be made from that.

This topic is very high between teenagers. Because we are trying to find our identities and get consumed in our world of social destruction. 

So many young men and women of the future have taken their lives because they cannot handle this inner cage.

But it doesn't get easier as we get older.

Cause it comes as something different when we grow older.

One icon that has proven to us all that this demon can be tamed is the Late Nelson Mandela.

Who showed me that we cannot use our depressed mind to benefit our situation.

It can be the flame to our freedom, our success, our sanity.

To learn to love yourself even if the whole world hates you.

There's always someone who says something negative.

Or a friend who kills your joy.

But even the worst fires can be extinguish with the right tools.

Do not let this disease consume you.

Talk to someone, yourself break the bounds,

That cause you to hate the wonderful person you are.

But even the inner bitch has a mute button.

Just find yours.

             Diu

Alpha Males

This breed of male mind is like that of a lion.

Its dominion is written on his face.

And heard in his words.

His heart bleeds but yet the pain is hidden.

I have seen a lot in his eyes.

As the hurt he feels inside.

Wait to explode.

Am surprise how he hides his emotions.

And tells the world he is fine.

His loneliness has built a wall around him.

And no one dares to cross.

His trust is like a thin line.

Because past betrayal still lingers in his mind.

Tried to figure out the very depth of his mind.

But yet I come out blank.

The complicated mind of this young man.

Is worth a while in thought.‎

CRYING

I try to understand why tears flows down my eyes.

 Why i feel so vunrable with all my emotions.

Why do i see my tears as a form of weakness.

A sense of escape from the chains of my heart. But i have come to learn that when the pain becomes unbearable and i cannot fight any longer.

Am not weak by crying but weak when i choose to give up.

So when i cry i let go of the pain and welcome the joy.

 Whats your reason for crying?

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HOPE

 I have seem to loose all faith, all direction, all visions, missions and positions.

 My mind is craving for attention that is not needed. Giving way to the hatred and sadness within. I feel nothing but anger to the little things i seem to have no control over.

But despite it all, I still seem to feel alittle of Hope. I don't know where its coming from but i believe that am not gonna be like this forever. Its gonna change sooner or later.


We all have that little Hope inside us. We cant give up our hope because it doesn't work out. xoxo to all who love and support me